i dont know which one is more frustrating:

1 1/2 hour trying to answer 1 1/2 years medical study (+++++ additional reading) but
getting screwed up with a question about the devices for health promotion?, , is it cross-sectional or cohort or even semi-quasimal? for all the study thing, or even trying to figure out the sampling unit for all the gay guys and lesbians who still cant figure out that being homosexual is not really a safe way to stay out of HIV ( no offence to the eventual gay or lesbian who read my blog )!

and remind me that i'm still doing Bachelor of Medicine/Surgery at Monash University.. not Bachelor of Epidemiology, or Bachelor in research or even Bachelor in social community or even worse Bachelor of Craig Hassed Theme 1 coz i still dont figure out how on earth i'm gonna be a good doctor by spending too much time finishing SPC, HPKM, CPP and left my Guyton looking helplessly in shelves..

when you think that studying medicine is about burying yourself in physiology or anatomy books... well, in Monash, they do it differently.. not only they doesnt want to bring out a doctor who knows only talk to books.. which is a good thing.. but, they also want you to become a researcher for a topic that only to be teached by the time you finish your project and handed in to the faculty...

or knows all about the statistics that i think even maths students are still sctraching their heaad off or knows how to design a health promotion that not even gonna reached to the public and only to be confined to a 5 years sentence in Craig Hassed office due to ethical comittee (see, i might become an ethical gals after all) or even find time in my future 72-hour shift life in hospital for social work to the homeless people...

welcome to my monash world...

and back to my other world:

"Hatred is building inside of me. If i smile, dont be deceived"

what shold i do as a fren if i came across this status for my fren?

ask him? or just let it go coz i know he will not tell me or the perfect word, NEVER. i'm not arguing about his choice not telling about anything. but what's the point of putting it up if you dont wanna talk about it? maybe it some way of represnt what's his feeling at the moment.. but, even i put 83' as my status, the first he gonna ask, what's up with the status..

hmm.. i should stop putting other people perspective into mine.. and just back to my own way where i have to call back home just to talk about Olympics and soccer in my very own language coz i dont think he understand mine and so do other people...

P/S: Milan 3-0 Lazio : hatrick for Sheva and Maldini back to his left-back sublime skills that made him such a figure in the football world..

another P/S : Arsenal 5-3 Boro : up 1-0 in 26th min, down 1-3 in a space of 10 minutes between interval, up 4-3 in 12 minutes and polishing the record of 42 unbeaten league games with the pace of Thiery Henry for 5-3

The truth is rarely pure and never simple

Oscar Wilde,
The Importance of Being Earnest, 1895, Act I

♥ ♥ ♥ aJLa I'm no angel.. and i manage to remain alive in my own quirky way

"Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon."

*having my wickest dream come true *hint* dvz *hint*
*not to kill anyone as a doctor
*a person who can swept me off my feet