______________*DAmIeN vAn ZYl - Head in the CLouds

Under My skin

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

a gloomy/rainy day!!!

after 2 hot/warm/beautiful-feel-like summer day... it back to spring again.. gloomy/cloudy/rainy-feel like-better-off-to-bed-but-stuck-with-diabetes-review-cd...

after procrastinating for nearly ermm... 3 hours?

i got so many pictures in my computer.. not just a picture of me.. got a folder named "maldini and Milan", "arsenal", "Schumi and Ferrari", "damien".. that to name a few.. using microsoft photo editor (for good or bad?), i made some good used of all the picture that currently bulking up my C drives.. the result?

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cool isn't it?

i just put that as my new wallpaper after nearly 2 weeks of looking at lochie on my desktop..

..got the sense to finally finish the program... after reviewing all this case.. i just pray that i didn't ended up with any of the disease that is suppose to know by now.. it's horrible and obviously not-a-good-thing to get diagnosed by a disease for life!!!

so.. for you people out there.. watch your diet (speaking for myself) and exercise (reminder for myself!!)

hmm....

while somehow trying to stuff all the HDL and LDL thing into my small brain... my hand was getting itchy by turning up the volume of the radio.. not a good thing nor a clever move..

i ended listening to Avril Lavigne (is she for real?) "my happy ending".. i dont know what get into me.. i stop listening to song's lyrics for quite sometime.. usually i just sing along the song without realising what the song really meant.. last month and the month before and before..., i was so into John Mayer's "love song for no one"... the lyrics went like this

"Love Song For No One"

Staying home alone on a Friday

Flat on the floor looking back

On old love

Or lack thereof

After all the crushes are faded

And all my wishful thinking was wrong

I'm jaded

I hate it

I'm tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

So tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

Searching all my days just to find you

I'm not sure who I'm looking for

I'll know itWhen I see you

Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom

Staying up all night just to write

A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

So tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox

I could have passed you on the sidewalk

Could I have missed my chance

And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

So tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

You'll be so good

You'll be so good for me

people sometimes say, what song's you listen, reflect something about yourself... hmm.. if we look at 'love song for no one'.. it would certainly said that i'm that desperate looking for love and need someone.. hehe

safe to say that i'm not... it's probably got to do with the music and john mayer's haunting voice.. arghh!!.. it's so sexy thought he's not considered as 'kacak' as i always love to say..

back to Avril Lavigne's song... i never like Avril.. not even when 'Skater's boy" were palyed to death on radio or tv... but, there's something about this song that me wanna listen to over and over again today and listening to the lyrics also.. what got into me today..

My Happy Ending

So much for my happy ending

Let's talk this over

It's not like we're dead

Was it something I did?

Was it something You said?

Don't leave me hanging

In a city so dead

Held up so high

On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends

I know what they say

They tell you I'm difficult

But so are they

But they don't know me

Do they even know you?

All the things you hide from me

All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know that you were there

Thanks for acting like you cared

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were done

ermm.. probably it got something with my past, present and future..

but, what really count right now.. finishing this diabetes thing..

-So much for my happy Ending-

&faded to grey at 10/13/2004 04:27:00 pm♥