I'm so fcukingly (it’s a brand name, ok!) pissed, mad, angry or any word synonyms with at myself… nope, not just myself… everyone… wait.. why should I blame anyone.. it’s me who picked up the phone, dial the number and talked.. why don’t I just be a good lass and never bother with the fact that the phone was unlocked...


Aha.. not just word.. my solemn promise that I made to myself… then the voice came again .. “somebody has to do something.. just dig a hole and put ur pride and promise in it coz u’ll regret it for quite a nice time”

There’s no point fighting a fight that only existed in my mind… no body won and I’m always on the loosing side…

*sigh* I just wish to be as emotionless like someone I knew *sigh*

now, can I just drowned myself in my own word and probably regret what I just wrote by the time I read this post again…

something never change and I don’t see it will ever change